Maybe you and I, we’re watching the same night sky.. #sky #night #nofilter #sunset
U know things happen for a reason, uncontrollable at times. U don’t plan for it to happen. U don’t turn around to look twice. U feel as though u are shaken, falling from the sky. And even though we’re broken, i know that i’m paralyzed.
When things don’t go your way; work your way around it. #love #heart #coffee #tea #oldpicture
Me gusta mucho! #avocado #dip #nachos #food #snacks
The birds chirp in the morning, skies burning so bright.
I sit here and i start pondering, if i’ll ever be all right.
Beautifully expressed and captured for it just sums its all up!
It is often that people hope and dream of things that they know will only be kept in their dream bank. There are certain things that are possible, and others would be possible to; probably just keeping it for a later possible day and time.
It is all about timing they say. Things happen for a reason, at the right time and at the right place. Who’s to say anything is written in stone? The possibility of it all may just very well be that very last shred of hope that I have. The power of fate and if the very idea of us being together needs a certain time then i am willing to wait. But mark my words when I say that i will not be the one to break u, I will not be the one that hurts you. For i will never succumb to those kind of feelings. I could never hurt u.
More importantly, I could never hurt myself.
It is that utter feeling of foolishness that grips the heart and shuts it down. That feeling of “I told you so”. That feeling of “I knew it” and yet, yet you told me that it was possible and i believed. No matter how much i knew the impossibility of it all, I still had that teeny weeny hope left in me. Though, I still feel stupid.I feel foolish, that i thought of u that way. Foolish for opening my heart. Foolish for believing that this is true. Foolish that I could possibly have a happy ending. Foolish that it would just be like those movies. And then I question myself. Weren’t you the one that didnt believe in things like that? Weren’t u the only person in this world who thought that everyone else could have a happy ending, but yourself? Weren’t u the one that believed to bad that such a thing could not happen, would not happen? And yet, you know deep down in your heart that u just believed and hoped that you would be proven wrong. U trusted ur guts but u knew that this once, u had to be proven wrongly so that maybe, just maybe there was such a thing as miracles. Such a thing as a happy ending. I ponder on those moments when the people around me switch, from being supportive, to a whole negative point of view and i would just shut them down. Though they echoed my own thoughts, i knew that actually saying it might make it come true and i didn’t want that to happen. Foolish as i was, i still prayed. I still hoped. And I was proven wrongly.
This is the reason why one does not believe in miracles for oneself to say the least. It doesn’t mean that a girl is over the idea of having a fairy tale, happy ending. But more of the fact that such a thing would never happen to me. Such a thing would only happen to pretty, beautiful girls out there. It is that very hope that tortured and tormented my mind. I believed in something that i thought would and wished for it to happen. But in actual fact, i was lost and i was right! I knew it from the start, I knew this was to come. But I let it go, thinking that it was all right.
Just a week can change someone else’s life. Just a week is all it takes from changing ur life in spring to a deadly winter’s night.
I know I will not succumb to this feeling of unhappiness. Maybe because i am rational and practical and i just want to be proven right for something at very least, the other thing that i believe to have happened. I believe that we can remain friends and i want to prove to myself that that very thing that i yearn for will come true. I believe that we are friends, will be friends and i hope that is true.. I am strong enough to say that I will be strong enough for u, more importantly for myself.
“I need to prove to myself also that we can be friends. And I also want that to happen. I don’t want to avoid and move away from him. If i move, then it would be like i wanted to be friends only because i wanted him. And I don’t want that. I wouldn’t want that.”